I just find myself feeling a little down, christmas is this week and it has gotten here way to damn fast. Thing have really just made me want to cry..with getting the furnace fixed and it taking a BIG chunk of our christmas money..I find myself feeling like a failure. I just wanted this christmas to be better than the last one..yes things are better than last year. But i sooooo wanted this year to be next to perfect. I know perfect is so hard to come bye.
I miss my family the most this time of year, i soooooooooo wish i had the money to go home. I haven't been home for christmas since 2005. Dad and the boys haven't even seen Keven yet or the rest of the family, plus Kourtney and Kendrick were really little when we were there last time.
*sighs* I find myself wishing for things to be a little bit more busy..Larry is working today and tomorrow, firday and the weekend. So that means the kids christmas vacation will be mostly spent with just me. All alone in this big house with three kids..i am lonely. Can't help it, i wish my mom could be here. I HATE the quiet some days..i want more sounds in my house i want to have a party and have people come..and it isn't gonna happen.

I just want you all to know that I love ya all and so wish I could buy you all something sweet and special, or even have the time to make it for you.

*hugs*

Well lets see went to the parent meeting thingie at Keven's school, it was a heck of allot longer than it was last year at this time. Larry and I only stayed for part of it..we had stuff to do. He is only off today and Friday and the weekend but i had to go get my bills in the mail and run to the store and i needed to get it all done before the kids got home from school. After that i went and got Keven and Larry is gonna get Kourtney and Kendrick off the bus. Kendrick had Polar Express Day at school today and got to wear his Pj's to school and he was thrilled.
Keven's Party at school is Friday, Kourtney and Kendrick's in Thursday and Kendrick has a field trip on Friday. *sighs* I guess they are trying to squeeze everything in before the holidays..but i hate things that are planned last min and they send a note home asking you to send stuff for parties..and you only have so much money left after payday to do things with *sighs* cause it makes me feel bad.
I want a quiet evening..not sure i will get it. lol When you have three kids..you forget What "QUIET" is like lol.
Angie told mom to tell me i need to bring Rolls and Drinks to the Party Christmas morning. Oh and i can't make them they have to be STORE BOUGHT...and she told me the kind they want..some kind you just pop in the oven..something everyone likes or something..BLAH..whatever :P.
I wanted to have a good day today..thought i was..
I am just run down i guess and tired, I even went to be early last night. Called my mom and she said she would call me back in like 20 min and she never did so i didn't bother calling her back i went to bed. Wonder if she will call me tonight.
Well i guess that is today in a nutshell.
Like my santa icon?? I made it in rebel_graphxs and the one i used in my last post too. Just something happy..

Well better get off here and fins something to get into around the house..have no idea what to make for dinner..grilled cheese might be in order lol.